--- blahing my thoughts.

sometimes i feel like im on the brink of nothingness and emptiness... like each type..each letter is just waitin for the nxt and that's it. I try to swallow the fear...4get everything ..but its still there. I dont kno where it cuda ended cause i didnt find the beginning yet. Im not sure where i should send these apology letters, and dont even know if it was worth buying thank you cards. I used to kno what i was looking for ... what i wanted. but i had everything and easily lost it. Does it matter if i cry? cause no one sees it... i'm just there there to watch it drop and stain my costume... i hav to catch these tears on my own. i found complete happiness once. Once. But i wasnt enuff 2 keep it, i watched it leave n take vacations wit me n left. n i became a spring break memory..